You’re Grown Now

Act like it’s normal

Another day goes by. You’re learning what it is to be grown faster than you spell your name because every second demands that you task yourself, that you arm yourself, that you act in a way you’re not used to. Your mind and body are not quite ready for the phase age has brought to you. The world cannot be convinced to do away with this oddity because everyone around you is going through a similar thing. Everyone is putting up with it, faking it and acting like it’s normal. Else the world will fall apart.

You know this thing called responsibility? It starts and it does not stop. And you have to do it. You do it confused, you do it uncertain because there’s an end goal. And not everyone gets to skip the struggle. People like you have to fight it off. So no matter how many times things go south and out of tune you feel with everything, you still have to take charge because why? You crave stability and society needs stability.

It’s hard. Nothing prepares you for this. The process, crooked paths, indecisions, and sacrifices, all so you can become upstanding. Maybe this is not the life you signed up for but remember how you always wanted to grow up so bad? Yeah, welcome to the life you never knew you needed.

And when you happen to have sense, you know no one has to tell you before you get into character because you fear being a nuisance, let people not avoid you like the plague. One day, you will realize there’s no food at home—because did you buy groceries? Did you cook?

There was a time when the only thing you had to do was learn your ABCs, eat, sleep and everyone would be proud.

But now? It is a totally different thing. Are you making money? If no, then you have no case 🤧. In as much as the pressure keeps building up, you cannot kill yourself, you can only do your best and your efforts can only take you so far.

One thing I am going to do is sleep. I will sleep like I don’t have anything to worry about. Then I wake up and get mad that I slept too much but I will still sleep any chance I get. Whatever is mine won’t pass me by even when I sleep 😂. I am not lazy and Allah is in control. I get my worrying days, and at that point I can only ever think about why my life is not going the way it should but I also have the days where I just go about my day, believing every second spent is worthwhile.

You know earlier in this post where I implied that some skip the struggle? If you’re enjoying generational wealth, marrying a rich somebody, can’t be bothered about anything stress, makes easy money, this post is not for you but you can help my life 😁