Strutting Into 2023 Because...

Did 2022 do you good?

Hey y’all, thank you for doing this with me. All 50 of us here 😂🤧 but I know we’ll do better.

I hope we’re smiling into the weekend and into 2023, cause that’s what I’m doing.

Although, I broke a few promises I made to myself at the beginning of the year, I feel I did things a little differently. 2022 is not ending badly for me and I don’t beat myself a lot about the mistakes I made because what, we go again next year!

Before I talk about the little changes I effected in my life, please who will carry me to new year countdown celebration?

If you know you’re in kaduna and you plan to attend this event and you have a car and vip tickets for two, or three (I’ll come with a friend), I want to follow you. Emphasis on “if you have a car”, because I cannot be stranded after dancing to Crayon’s Ijo Labalaba and shouting 10, 9,...3, 2, 1 into 2023.

When you drop me off, I hope you will not come face to face with my mother and you’ll have to explain to her why I’m coming back home in the middle of the night when I am still under her roof. She’ll tell me to go back to where I am coming from and I’d have to follow you to your house because I cannot sleep in Murtala Square.

God, at this my big age. When will I live alone? This is a topic for another day. I don’t want to cry. I want 2022 to have a happy ending . But, don’t forget my request.

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In no particular order, let’s see a few things that changed for me this year.

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  This year, I put an end to the “I don’t know” phase. If you know me, you’d know that I say that a lot 😂. And it is mostly because I am the type of person to avoid questions, even when they’re only a slight bit personal.

  Samirah, what’s your favorite color? I don’t know.

  Where do you see yourself in five years? I don’t know.

  Is this how I will use ‘I don’t know’ and chase my helper away? God forbid! My head is not wired like that again.

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  Socially awkward? Who? I am getting better at associating with people. You still won’t find me in a crowd for long but I can hold longer wholesome conversations and guess what, I make jokes too. I feel less strange and less anxious. So, If you knew me before, you don’t know me again o😂

  If I don’t like you, that’s a different situation. Move! Well except we’re networking cause we share a profession or something. Then, I’d have to pretend.

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  That I don’t have everything figured out doesn’t scare me as much as it used to. I am being more intentional about my goals, and I’m starting to define them. My vision is getting clearer and it’s a sign that I am getting somewhere in shaa Allah. I will figure it out eventually. Certainly, my time will come. I can only do my best, I cannot kill myself.

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  A thick skin is a must have because people will want to cut you! They will want to rubbish you 😭

  They will make you hate yourself. They will shame you until they can shame you no more.

  Whatever you do in this life, people will criticize. Do your thing. Laslas, it’s only you that’ll bear your cross at the end of the day. So, I’m doing what makes me happy as long as it’s legal.

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  Making conscious effort to be there for family. They are the only ones that’ll hold on to the tiniest thread to fix things in dire situations. It’s not like they’ll not show you shege too o, but the will to stick together, to work together as a close unit can’t be compared to any other.

  If you have a family that really cares about you, that’s a huge blessing on its own, don’t take it for granted.

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  I let people go because I cannot light fire inside rain. I tend to get too attached to people such that when they leave, I become miserable. Then I want them back. But looking at the circumstances in which I lost them, I’ve realized it’s for the best. If you want to be my friend because you think I portray a certain lifestyle that you want, please don’t. I’m telling you now o, it is packaging. Don’t stress me

  So I will not baff, wear fine cloth, spray perfume and use iPhone that is not my own to snap pictures because I don’t have 2k in my account? I don’t want the world to know that nau. I have shame.

  I also have many sisters 🌚

  My point is, I will not entertain deception in the name of friendship.

  If you’re an enemy, come as one so that we’ll know how we’ll fight.

  My focus is on my life’s progress even if I have only one true friend🤧

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  I’ve made peace with the fact that I will be slim forever because why am I still wearing the same body for almost 7 years now? Why do these boys think I’m an adolescent girl in secondary school? Why are they arguing my age with me?

I’m going to look for outfit that I’ll use for countdown. If you don’t see any photos, know that nobody came through for me and I ended up at home hearing them throw banga up and down.

Happy New Year in advance 🎉❤️