It’s Hard to Pick a Struggle…

when life is tossing you around

Hi!

If you’re reading this, it’s because I decided not to run away from this space. I have the perfect opportunity to disappear for a while; Ramadan. Those of us observing fast in this holy month know how important this time is. It’s a time to build a stronger relationship with our Maker. A time for reflection. A time where we put in more efforts so our good deeds and values are increased. So, you will understand when someone tells you they are ‘retreating into the cave’ this month.

I made a commitment to myself and to my amazing subscribers and subscribers-to-be 😁that I would show up here every Friday and I take it as an obligation I have to fulfill. In the three months since I started this newsletter, I haven’t missed a week and that has taught me something—a few things actually.

• Commitment is something you teach yourself. It is a challenge. It doesn’t just come naturally even when you are doing what you absolutely love.

• Consistency is key. Even though we hear it all the time, it’s one of the hardest things to do in my opinion. Especially when you think what you are doing isn’t yielding results.

• Patience should be everyone’s strong suit. But we shouldn’t confuse it with waiting. Waiting without a sense of direction.

• Being intentional will get you closer to achieving what you set out to accomplish. I myself, have to admit that I seem to be running around in circles, unsure about what I actually want to do.

When you are multi skilled ( a flex btw 😌) sometimes you get stuck with options you hate to choose from. And the truth is, you can’t do everything. I saw myself loving math to hating it. I saw myself go from loving science to adoring art. At a point I didn’t even know if I was a left or right brained person (believe me I still don’t understand the concept). I have come to a conclusion that although, I seem to be a person that wants to eat out of everything, that is not the way to go. In the long run, I would end up not being exceptional in one thing, after jumping from one path to another. I went from selling scarves, to being a makeup artist, to tech—I was so sure I wanted a place in it. Then I thought to turn my writing into a moneymaker because it is something I always loved. Let’s just say I am rethinking that. I want to carry my shame and go back into tech probably as a Ui/Ux designer because coding gave me trauma. I’d tell that story some day. I might end up changing the theme of my newsletter sef. We will see 😌

So, one of the prayers I pray gets answered this holy month is for Allah to help me navigate this thing called life so I can pick a struggle and stick with it because I’m getting too old for this merry go round that I am doing 🥹

I’m thinking of where to do iftar today. So nobody will invite me to come and eat food?