I’m Having A Hilariously Terrible Time

What about you?

2023 is more than halfway gone and I’ve not really held meetings with my different personalities to ask what we have been doing collectively to ensure the betterment of the individual that is me! Like are they even concerned about our wellbeing?

People around me have been celebrating birthdays and that just leaves me on edge. Age is like a major factor where achievements are concerned, there is no sugar coating it. It is really hard to believe otherwise when you see people a whole lot younger than you making it in life. You start to get really familiar with dejection.

My birthday is in roughly three months and I’m having anxiety thinking about the anxiety that will come with turning a new age. It’s like that day I will just stay in one corner and pretend nothing is happening. Because if I don’t acknowledge it then it doesn’t happen right? Let me just deceive myself like that.

And I can always lie about my age. People do it all the time. Where’s my birth certificate sef? I need to burn it and do a new one. It’s me that will decide when they born me 😭

It may seem like I have a nonchalant attitude sometimes but I do think about my life. It’s just that when I do it, my mind sort of goes into overdrive and I’ll now spend a whole week thinking about one thing. You know what that does? It ruins the freaking week. That’s why sometimes, I prefer not to think at all if I can help it so that I can go about my day with a lot less agitation.

But this week? I did a lot of thinking that didn’t amount to anything really because I only focused on the downside and not much about what I can do better. So I’m letting you guys know that I’m having a hilariously terrible week and I love it 🙂

I’m going to sign off here. My brain is paining me 🙃