I have a lot to share but…

bear with me.

Hi!

The thing is, I don’t have words today. That’s the issue, I must confess. I have a lot to share with you guys but for reasons I may or may not know, I can’t today 😌. Let’s say, I’ve been having a lot on my mind lately. I wish I can drop everything and run away to where everyday is a holiday 😭 But since I can’t do that, I’m stuck with the heat and this blinding sun that wants to turn me black by force.

Yeah so I’m not going to ask how you guys are because one, it’ll be only one person that might answer me 😂 and two, it’s probably going to be, “I’m fine” and we all need to stop saying that because we are not fine. Let me speak for myself, I am not fine. I want to eat pepper chicken and hollandia yoghurt. I want to own more baggy clothes and tote bags. I want to rid myself of indecisiveness. Because I wish I didn’t have to choose sometimes. I wish I knew how my life is programmed.

I think I crept back into my shell for a bit and everything around me felt monstrous. There is a certain terror that comes with the realization that your life is entirely up to you and the feeling that no matter how much you try, you can’t see your progress. Let’s say, this week had me feeling a little like that. Am I sad? Not exactly. Overwhelmed is more the word for it. I’ll be fine. We’ll all be fine In Shaa Allah.

This has got to be the shortest email I’ve written. Have a great weekend and be safe. Catch you all next week Friday ✌️

With love,

From baby girl Samirah.