Anxiety Dreams
google said that’s what this kind of dreams are called…
I’ve been doing a lot of sad songs lately. Stay with me till the end and if I feel up to it, I’d recommend some so that you can feel like they dumped the weight of Nigeria’s problems on your chest, like they are using hammer to break your heart. You can thank me now.
It just feels nice that I can come here and get my thoughts out. It feels like a safe space for me. In my previous post, a few of you were so kind to send me replies when I asked how y’all were doing. I actually didn’t expect any response whatsoever but it lifted my spirits for real and made me feel like I wasn’t totally up to nothing. Thank you. I pray your trying times lead to something beautiful in the end 😊
Now, here is the order of the day. When something bothers me a lot, I dream about it continuously. Is it just me?
One time, I was scared an ex would break up with me. That was how this werey was showing up in my dream almost everyday. I had to tell him that if he wanted to break up with me he shouldn’t worry, I will do the break up for both of us. He must not give me high blood pressure. He should just be going.
When I’m broke (and I’m always broke but Allah will do it for us), I receive credit alerts in dreams 😭. Like why is it so hard in real life? 200 k, 500 k will just be entering my account. In one dream, I was a millionaire. Not with a million naira o, but like hundreds of millions 🤧
Is that a sign? Ameen
Dreaming about money is very painful because it would feel so real that when you wake up, you will run and check your account balance only to find nothing there. That is when denial sets in. That is when you will understand the true meaning of harsh reality. That’s when you will realize that it is not only when they break your heart that you will be heartbroken.
When I am not sure if I did well in a test or exam, I just know that until the results are out, I’ll be seeing different versions in my sleep. If I don’t see D, I’ll see F. Come to think of it, why don’t I ever see A? 🤔
When I was younger, whenever I wronged my father and instead of punishing me right there, he tells me, “don’t worry, I’ll deal with you”, I just know that it is over for me. Like just give me the punishment let me serve and get it over with. If by the end of the day, he doesn’t do anything, I’ll find myself dreaming that they used koboko to design my body 😭
If there’s anything I’ve dreamed about the most in this life, it’s my secondary school. I am not even sure why. Anytime I close my eyes like this, I’ll just see myself in that stupid purple and white uniform. I’ve come to a conclusion that it is either one of two things.
My secondary school life sucked. Like a whole lot. I am probably bothered I didn’t make the most of it. My own was to go to school and make good grades so that I can become a doctor. What I am now?
Nobody cares to know, let’s move on.
*cries in future ambition 😭*
I’m still bothered about the fact that they expelled me unjustly. How is it their business If I went to write WAEC in another school while I was still a student in their school? No really, what’s their own? Are they not supposed to face their front and deal with their affairs? E pain me 🥹
I used to be a very obedient child but somehow I still managed to get into trouble. One man that I want to marry will say that I am stubborn but we will not believe him.
By the way, I received ‘complaints’ that I write like I am single. Not everything I write is true, let’s start from there and not everything I write is about me but let’s move on. If you want to shoot your shot, you can go ahead but you will miss because I am not single o biko. I have a husband please. I mean, fiancé. Know what? Let’s just leave it as boyfriend for now because he engaged me but I did not see my ring so I’m waiting for him to buy another ring and get down on one knee again. The way it’s going, it’s like it’s only going to happen in my dreams.
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I almost forgot the sad songs I wrote about in the beginning. I just discovered this guy, Benson Boone and I’ve been listening to “In The Stars” and “Ghost Town” on repeat. Jsyk, I’m hooked 🥹
All James Arthur’s songs are sad in my opinion. You see that Train Wreck song? I almost fell ill listening to it. That guy sounds sad without even trying and it breaks and soothe my heart at the same time.
That’s all I have for you for now, try them 😌
I believe my taste in music is top notch, but there’s this man that does not want to see it 🙄🤦🏽♀️